A Weekend Away



I survived another Mother's Day!  It wasn't easy, but I'm still alive :)  This weekend we went to Nashville just to get away and enjoy ourselves.  We stayed at the Opryland Resort and Spa and it was an amazing place.  The resort was huge and it was very beautiful.  They had gardens and waterfalls throughout the resort and also many restaurants, bars, and shopping.  We didn't get to lay by the pool which I would have liked, but we still had a great time.  I wish we could have stayed one extra day.  One Mother's Day, we both went and got pedicures and manicures at a really nice salon.  It was a great way to spend the weekend and relax.  I needed to get my mind of Mother's Day and it was perfect.  My sister also kept my dog, Lilly.  Lilly has been so sad lately and she had an exciting weekend with my nephews.  She had a blast and my sister loved having her.  She wanted to keep her :)  So it all worked out and Lilly got to have a little vacation too!  Sometimes I feel bad for her because we don't have any kids or other dogs for her to play with or keep her company.  I think she gets lonely during the day and it kind of makes me sad.

On a fertility note, I used OPK's this month to help predict my natural ovulation a little more accurately.  I was excited to actually get a positive, so I know ovulation is on it's way.  I'm happy that I'm already ovulating one month after surgery.  Hopefully that means my ovaries are in good shape, now my crappy uterus just needs to get on board with the rest of the team!  So I'm still a little swollen and my ovulation has been painful this month.   Getting pregnant this cycle might not be the best thing for me, since I'm still in the healing process.  But it's not going to stop us from trying!  But either outcome I'm pretty much okay with :)  We have acupuncture scheduled for Friday and I'm really looking forward to that.  I'm hoping it relieves my stress and relaxes me just like everyone says it will do.

O...O... Pain

Today was ovulation day and I could definitely feel it, horrible pain in my abdomen.  I guess it could be one of many things the ovary stretching, the egg releasing (2 eggs releasing), endometriosis scarring on the ovary causing pain, etc etc etc.  All I know is I couldn't walk or much less move for half of the day.  I've never had ovulation pain like that before so hopefully it's a good sign.  Unfortunately it makes me constantly think that something is wrong.  Luckily it was a Sunday and I was off today so I could stay home and relax all day.

By the evening the pain had subsided to small twinges and Chuck and I went on a mini date to Buca.  I was wanting Italian so it was nice to get out and have a nice dinner just the two of us.  It's really good to do these things it helps to get our minds off of everything and really just enjoy each other for awhile.  We can't base our happiness on whether or not we are pregnant.  I heard that quote from Bill Rancic from my show and it really made me think how true that is, no matter what God has planned for us we need to be happy with what we have and not focus on the negative.  We are 2 very lucky people in many ways and need to be thankful for the lives we are blessed with.  So Chuck and I keep joking about "our twins" and though it's funny to joke about we really don't know what's going to happen this cycle or the next or next.  We pray for the what's best and really hope things work out, but we just don't know.  I'm trying to prepare myself mentally for either outcome though it's hard to not have my hopes up.  I just know that if this cycle didn't take it's not the end and we can keep on trying.  So now we go on and try to keep our minds off of everything and enjoy being married.